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Male Feminization Discussions / Re: My Alpha Girlfriend Proposed
« on: December 30, 2025, 07:21:45 am »
Just wanted to provide some closure from this past year.

It has been a a whirlwind for sure!

This will be my last post. Thank you all!

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Male Feminization Discussions / Re: My Alpha Girlfriend Proposed
« on: November 14, 2024, 11:48:31 pm »
Below is Jane's answer to your question. But I will tell you all I cried when typing her response.

From Jane:

The short answer is no, but to fully answer your question I need to provide some context. I work in private equity which is a major boys club. So as a woman in that profession I need to be strong and driven.

Because of my chosen profession I always have men try to show their superiority.
Even with that in my daily activity, when I met El, I was taken that (he) didn't need to challenge me at all. (He) chose to engage me as just a person. I fell in love with that person and I had no desire to change (him).

However, after a special night, El's world changed. While this change was initiated by me, it was more curiosity from me at that moment and not intent. El found herself that night and since I already fell in love with that person it became easy, we together advanced forward.

I supported her revelation, and I did not pressure her. I did give her input to find her true self. At that moment Ellissa was born.

I embraced her for who she was evolving to.
Her soul is pure and she was truly who I was meant to be with.

El may be the most honest person I have ever known. She is open to a fault, and I never doubt her love for me.

What you don't know is her driven nature. Once she was born, she strived for feminine perfection. She intently studied makeup and feminine behaviors and mannerisms. She is more feminine than most cis women.

I have no doubt her drive towards femininity was for both of us, for her to find herself and for her to show how much she loved me.

The obvious next question is what is my sexual orientation. To be honest I would consider myself heterosexual but I love that person who became the woman she is today and she is truly my soul mate.

She is my partner in life and I love her as she is. She is beautiful and one of the best individuals I have ever known.

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Male Feminization Discussions / Re: My Alpha Girlfriend Proposed
« on: November 13, 2024, 02:26:26 pm »
I spoke to Jane about her participating in the forum.
She does not want to participate directly but if someone had specific questions she would consider having me post responses.

She is okay with my participation but she generally doesn't do any social media.

Ellissa

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Male Feminization Discussions / Re: My Alpha Girlfriend Proposed
« on: November 12, 2024, 10:26:50 pm »
You are way too kind in your assessment, but thank you for the kind words.

BTW that picture feels like it was a prior life.

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Male Feminization Discussions / Re: My Alpha Girlfriend Proposed
« on: November 12, 2024, 10:01:20 pm »
I received a question via email about my evolution and inquiring about my appearance prior to my journey. I was fortunate that I was not overwhelming masculine in my teens. I went back to a time before I met Jane and the attached picture is extracted from a photo when I was about eighteen.

As you can see I was blessed to have a running start. The best starting attributes were my hair and softer facial features. At the time it was not an advantage as a young man but given my journey it was the right building blocks to allow me to become who I am today. That disadvantage became a big advantage.

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Male Feminization Discussions / Re: My Alpha Girlfriend Proposed
« on: November 10, 2024, 06:12:36 am »
She generally avoids social media, but I'll ask.


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Male Feminization Discussions / Re: My Alpha Girlfriend Proposed
« on: November 09, 2024, 08:39:20 pm »
Hey girls, Jane honored me with an engagement ring Saturday. I am beyond happy!!! I love my girl and she made the perfect selection for me. I am so giddy right now I can't stop smiling!
 
We went to visit Jane's mom in La Jolla and during a walk on the beach she graced me with an engagement ring. I had an inclination that this might happen so I made sure my nails were ring ready!

The first picture is me prior to our walk. The second is me showing off my ring.

While my family is unaccepting, Jane's mom embraces me as a second daughter.

Never could I even imagine that I would be a bride. While I know how I got here it is bewildering to me that I am now living my life as woman and it feels just right.

I feel like I am a unicorn and this is all a big dream. If so, I hope with my entire being that I never wake up.

I am so thankful for the support from all of you.

I promise I will share possible wedding dresses with the group.

Big smiles today!!!!!!

Ellissa

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Male Feminization Discussions / Re: My Alpha Girlfriend Proposed
« on: November 03, 2024, 12:09:11 pm »
Again thank you all for the input.

I considered all the advice given and decided that I did indeed need to confess my girly desires.

So this week I purchased an engagement ring for Jane. Jane is feminine in her own appearance so I chose a ring that fits her personality. The center stone is a garnet, her birthstone, with three small diamonds to the lower left side and one small diamond to the upper right, the rest is white gold.

On Saturday, we ventured out to the state park. I had packed some food and wine (discreetly concealed). Once we got settled and started talking I revealed that she is the most important person in my world and that I was so happy that she asked me to marry her. I couldn't imagine my life without her and I joked she literally made me into the woman I am today.

After we both stopped laughing, I then confessed that I know I am a girly girl and because of those feelings I want to be a bride in all respects and that I would be honored to wear an engagement ring if she would choose to select one for me, as well as a wedding ring once we are married. I want everyone to know I am her bride.

I then opened the ring box and stated that, she would honor me if she would wear this ring as a symbol of my love for her.
Then of course, she cried and I cried, and even though I used the waterproof mascara my face was a total mess.

It is simple, but here is her ring.

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Male Feminization Discussions / Re: My Alpha Girlfriend Proposed
« on: October 31, 2024, 08:34:30 pm »
KirstenGe

I truly hope you get the opportunity to renew your vows in a beautiful wedding dress.


Sending positive vibes for that to become reality.

Ellissa

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Male Feminization Discussions / Re: My Alpha Girlfriend Proposed
« on: October 30, 2024, 12:06:42 pm »
I wanted to thank everyone for the kind words, support and the earlier advice.

I recognize that my situation is not a true match to the forum but when I was trying to google, this appeared to be the closest. I should have looked closer before I posted. But I am thankful that we crossed paths.

The request for my "story" caused me to reflect yesterday. It reminded me how unusual my path is.

My path was not influenced by my feelings earlier in life, nor had I any thoughts of being attracted to men.

I prefer to think about my evolution as finding my soul mate and then finding my true self.

I plan having a discussion with Jane to express my feelings and desires to her.

Hopefully she will see how much I love her and how I desire to please her.

Sending love to all of you for your input!

Ellissa

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Male Feminization Discussions / Re: My Alpha Girlfriend Proposed
« on: October 28, 2024, 09:11:07 pm »
Sarah, In response to your last post.


About me:

I couldn't say I was effeminate growing up nor was I overly athletic. I was a normal kid.
As I said in a prior post I have a slight frame. Relative to height I am about 5'7"


How we met:

Jane and I met about 5 years ago. I was finishing my junior year at university. Jane is about 4 and 1/2 years older than me. We were introduced by common friends during a group gathering. Jane is brilliant by anyone's standards and graduated with highest honors from an ivy league school. She is also highly motivated and focused. I had a friend that told me once Jane was too intense. She works in private equity. While this is a little out of order I ultimately got my accounting degree and keep financial records for companies remotely.

To be honest we didn't click at first. But we had these common friends so we saw each other often. After a long conversation one night we found that we had a lot of common interests. We kind of fell into dating because of those common interests. We both like hiking and generally being outdoors. We are both foodies and are into wine.

After we dated a couple of times, Early on I asked her why me? She said that most guys get intimidated by her and she felt like they try to constantly compete with her. She said I was a good complement to her and that I was a thoughtful caring person that didn't feel the need to out do her.

My Feminization Journey:

I am blessed with very thick and full hair and at that time it was fairly long in length. From my point of view it was just shaggy.
I had also had both ears pierced during high school in a bit of defiance (this did not go over well at home at the time).

Jane was with me when I went to get my hair under control at a salon, intending to get it cut shorter quickly before heading out for dinner.
While I was in the chair the stylist who was assigned to me started gushing over how beautiful my hair is and how she would love to have what I have and that most women would also.
She went on and on and stated I didn't need a shorter haircut, I just needed it cut right to frame my face. Jane jumped on that perspective.
After working on me for about 30 minutes or so, she turned to Jane and said with my hair and face shape I could easily pass for a woman. I responded there is no way I could do that, I am a guy.
Jane looking in the mirror said she agreed with the stylist. The stylist said I'll prove it to you. I said no way. She said let me restyle your hair some more and make one other change.
I responded don't do anything that can't be undone and she said no problem.
She spun the chair around away from the mirror and went to work. About 20 minutes later she ran out of the room and came back with a set of dangling earrings.
She put them in my ears and made a couple of additional hair adjustments and then spun me back towards the mirror.

I was stunned, in the mirror was a young woman, a female version of me. I could not believe my eyes. Both Jane and the stylist then commented that this was even without any makeup.

The stylist removed the earrings and restyled my hair back into a more male style.

A couple of weeks later Jane brought that night back up and said it would be fun if we could go back to the salon and let them restyle my hair and make me up.
I was really hesitant but Jane is a force when she wants something. I reluctantly gave in for one time.

The day came and they agreed to do all this in the back room as I was too spooked to be out in the main salon.
When they were done styling and putting makeup on me I was not recognizable, literally. Before I looked like a female version of me. This time I looked like a totally different person. I actually touched my face to make sure it was me.
Jane started snapping some pictures of me.

I was ready for this to end when Jane said "I want you to come back to my apartment like this". I was still in a state of shock but told them I am not going out into the public like this.
Jane said she would bring the car to the back of the salon and no one would see me leave. After protesting for a bit I gave in.

We managed to get to her apartment without being noticed.
Jane went to her closet and pulled out a bra, panties and a little black dress. She then said if I put them on she would make this a night to remember.
Given I was still a guy underneath all of this, a little more effort wouldn't hurt as it was just the two of us and there was apparently a big reward at the end.

After I put on the bra, panties and dress, Jane softly caressed and seduced me. I had never up to that moment had a sexual experience that left me literally shaking.
During this sexual encounter I felt like a woman, it was an out of body experience. At one point I had this image of me looking down at the two women having the most passionate sensual experience.

I couldn't erase the feeling of completeness in those moments and as we progressed forward I wanted that every day. From that point I found myself leaning into who I wanted to be and then the decisions to get there became easy. Like they were meant to be.

I spent countless hours learning to apply makeup, as well walking, talking, feminine movements and mannerisms. I want Jane to be proud of the woman I have become.

I love being a woman and to be desired. After the years of hormone therapy my body for the most part has caught up with my mind. I would prefer slightly larger breasts as I have attained close to a B cup. I still shiver every time Jane touches me there. I love that feeling.

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Male Feminization Discussions / Re: My Alpha Girlfriend Proposed
« on: October 27, 2024, 01:52:37 pm »
I appreciate your perspective given the information I have shared.

We are a couple in public. I have attended Jane's office functions as her partner. At those events I ensure that I represent her well in appearance and interactions with others.

We have also done weekend getaways with some of her colleagues.

I firmly believe her proposal was an extension of our love and desire to spend the rest of our lives as a couple everywhere.

If not what would be her motivation for proposing?

Ellissa


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Male Feminization Discussions / Re: My Alpha Girlfriend Proposed
« on: October 27, 2024, 08:05:13 am »
Haraldje,

Thank you for that. My head is truly swimming.

Ellissa

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Male Feminization Discussions / Re: My Alpha Girlfriend Proposed
« on: October 27, 2024, 08:03:13 am »
Kristen and Patti

Thank you for the support.

Outside of my estranged family and some friends in prior cities, everyone in our current city simply knows me as Ellissa. And those that knew me prior just can't wrap their head around it.
Because of this I really have no outlet for conversations.
To be honest until now I haven't felt the need to open up on my "status" I just lived my life and our last move made that easy. But something has changed.
Jane's proposal triggered new emotions, I look so forward to being her wife and continue to support her. But I also look forward to others knowing that I am her wife. I am proud of her.

Does that sound strange?

I am truly in uncharted territory and these new desires are hard to control.

Ellissa

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Male Feminization Discussions / Re: My Alpha Girlfriend Proposed
« on: October 27, 2024, 07:03:39 am »
Thank you for the advice. After my  original post and one of those stupid jewelry commercials I had a bit of meltdown. I hardly slept last night.
 
I live totally as a woman, I work as a woman, my drivers license is that of a woman as I changed my name and gender marker. The only remnants of being a male is what's left between my legs.

I guess my brain has been totally rewired. I can't even fathom living other than as a woman.

Given all this why wouldn't I want the things a 24 year old woman would want. I am girly, I want the wedding dress, I want the walk down the aisle. Yes I do desire it all, because I am now a woman.

However what you have suggested  makes sense. I need to demonstrate my devotion to her as  well.

I apologize for rambling a bit but the flood of emotions has been hard to control.

Thank you again for the advice.


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