New Age Lifestyle

It took over an hour of searching and my wife is a touch unhappy I found it now and confirms tbia is the right post, including the similarity of me only fathering daughters.

https://newagelifestyle.createaforum.com/new-existing-member-introductions-11/introducing-myself/msg2194/#msg2194

If that's the case I am now leaning cloaer to divorce.  Playing make believe is one thing - that degree

I may not be able to function in a standard position because of the lack of flexibility in my back but I am not giving up my testes and function.

No wonder she is insistent on breasts that was supposedly the turning point here. My wife even sais it should be easy for me to grow them becauae my mom and suster both had to have reduction surgery from something like DDDD size. She is also getring a kick from this forum because she knew I would recieve no empathy here.

The decision ia not fully made. First, I really think its a lot of effort.  Second, I wish I coud find the post she was referring to. Third, I do not want hormones because I like my manhood and want to keep using it. 

I waa actually hoping for more assistance and guidance with the list she provided - its too overwhelming for me.

My wife has told me to make this post.  She used AI to makenthe included list (I dont know how to incorporate into the body here so if someone else does please do so in your reply)

She says she has tried to communicate gently but here is the deal.  Right now I am 55.  By the time I retire at 60 she expects I incorporate every one of the reclaimed male items on this list on a daily basis except secretarial, Ballet and Horeback riding to todays modern use standards.

 As I work from home I can make all of these changes at whatever pace and as my work would be accepting by the day of my retirement she expects them all to be fully inplemented.  As I have mentioned before, I already wear a corset for my back and wear 2 inch heeled shoes for my right ankle and have tobuse menstrual underwear (not on the list). 

Not on the list is hormones but she says the new corsets she has ordered will have D cups with underwire and go from upper thigh to my full chest with full steel boning. So hirmknes are the only feminization request she is asking if me and I should start soom to begin filling those cups. (She says based on my mom and sister who both had significant  breast reduction surgery to get to DD, I should be well endowed)

 No idea how yoga will work with my back but she says she expects after the surgery I had I should just do the best  I can as physiotherapy.

I am told these were all things created for men and I am expected to be real man and do/wear them. 

I still do not want to do this at all even though admittesly life has put me on this path.  Its too much.  I do I integrate this so that within 4 years it is all part of my life - I hate journalling, know nothing about embroidery or knitting and can already cook. 

She will not help me but has said she will divorce me if even one is not a regular and daily or near daily part of my life by retirement day February 2030 and if I choose no hormones I must get implants no later than Feb 2029.

Here are her rules

1. I need to post on this site once per month (this might.not be the right area) and respond all who ask a question honestly.
2. I cannot post l pics except manicures, pedicures (mandatory) until 1 year after I agree to start hormones or 3 months after implants.
3. I need to get this community help on a reasonable and not overwhelming implementation plan.
4. She will provide no more help in my "masculinization" and will only complement if she notices changes on this list, I am on my own to learn everything on the list from acquiring clothing and makeup etc and learning to use it. 

I do notwant to divorce so for now I guess I am reluctantly in this path.  Read my other posts if you want to know what has happened before now. 

So HELP.  This is too much.  How do I "masculinize" to this list in just 3 years really so it becomes a quick easy and natural part of life?  How do I explain it as work notices the changes (even thoygh they arent supposed to react or judge)?  How do I explain to neighbours as all has been hidden explained (shoes) until now?  How do I accept this because I still dont want it or get it , I am being blackmailed by a person I love!  (She hates when I put it that way and does read everything but it feels true to me).

In my last post I said retired but not quite yet - my original post is accuratr - just under 10 years.  I am not reliant on my wife financially at all.  I earn a healthy wage and my pension plan is defined benefits.

Money isnt the biggest part of the equation but, like many, the current economy is a challenge in adjusting budget and paying $40k USD for my back surgery was taxing to our current bottom line. 

We have been married 30 years and I do rely on her for a lot as my body has given out.  The surgical recovery will mean I will be able to do a lot more without pain again but never bend fully at the waist. 

The fact is I love her, ita the only reason I have let her take it this far hoping the novelty for her would wear off.  Instead each next thing seems to double her resolve.  So I have to decide what to do when I am fully recovered.  Its rude to have her support fo so long and leave but its also a lot to manipulate me in this way.

Here is the latest pedicure. If I dont find an acceptable "style and design" then she gets to pick one for me now.  So I picked a cats eye galaxy theme. It seemed the most masculine I could think of. I am NOT creative in this area and am frustrated I had to look at nail and pedicure images for over an hout before this idea came to me.

Today, I turned 55 and she got me a gift certificate for hair removal.  Someone please explan to me why this is so important to her.