Marcy, you know the right path which is to obey your owner and take your punishment. you say you are no longer a man. i would respectfully disagree. you are a man, you are a more evolved man. sissies are a higher, more evolved, and better version of man. if it was me i would apologize for back talking, confess it's your toxic male ego that is still causing problems, reaffirm your committment to her leadership, ask her to punish you, and then thank her for taking the time to make you a better version of yourself. you are a lucky sissy.